Wednesday, November 22, 2006 @4:39 AM
ok from being high on weed,
well from the last post,
im not exactly very proud of it,
to being high on alcohol,
considering my friends practiaclly messed up my house,
well i kinda joined in aswell lah,
hahahah shit,ainsley's off with some girl he likes,and im left here to smoke a pack of winston,oh boy,hahah,happening night lah,hope i can function properly tmr,gonna spend some time with melanie tmr,then head of to jamming at night,hah,jamming,umar empahsized on,get everything right,or ur fucked!hahahah whyyyy,and to all the guys out there,my phone,new phone,or second hand(ainsley's or jasmine's old phone),really screwed up.hahaha,ive been thinking,i really gotta change my attitude towards life,really.all my lateness,and my excuses,the way i show up in life,it really stinks.hahah.im gonna organise myself.ive learnt alot during the o levels,well to basically sit down and do work,and do it CONSISTENTLY,hahaha,went shopping today,i got a pair of jeans,yayyyy.finally,im fed up with wearing berms.ive got 5 pairs of berms u know,5.hahah.long pants,it kinda symbolises a change.im reallly tired of my brother saying.... u know GET LAID,GET DRUNK.GET LAID.its time to be myself.be an individual,the crowd sucks lah.goals for the 5 months im free:band- focus on oshiego and ostygius. get my bassing techniques to another level,be consistent, and work on my solo projects and produce good songs.family and love ones: spend more time with them, get to know them much more.create a bond. show up in their lives. create an impact.smoking: cut downnnnn!!!!drinking: cut down!!!!books: work on my book,and shared book with ainsley about the os, and finish all current books im reading.jobs: get a hotel job or whatever, then zoo after i come back from africa. the whole point of this is expereince...not really the money. although i need the money. hahah.image: change my look, clothes wise, get new shoes, jeans, shirts and t shirts.self: be myself. and thats all.god: whatever it is, bond with god, and find my spiritual path...its about time.hope i can do this all with these 5 months. hahah. i can lah. fingers crossed.ive learnt...booze and alcohol? not that great.hahah. good conversation always beats it. face on.well whatever it is, the sean u know is transforming into someone whom i really want to be.yup...we shall see.hahah. take care. logging off.oh yeah and i cut my hair today at my god pa's place. it was fun and all at his place.hes really a mentor to me.the hair cut.....errr well its okay. hopefully itll grow back to normal again soon. ahahahaha.its ookay lah.hahaha. well ull see me when u see me. see ya
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